My personal perspective on the Law of Attraction and my Health

A couple of days ago I had surgery on my right breast to remove what is called a Fibroadenoma. The experiences leading up to the surgery have caused me to question some beliefs I have around the Law of Attraction that I want to share with you. I invite you to read my story as follows.

It all started over a year ago when I went for a routine mammogram. They found something suspicious so I was immediately sent for an ultrasound and biopsy. Needless to say that with my previous cancer history, having survived Hodgkin's Disease 14 years ago, I was quite shaken up over the prospect of having to go down that path for a second time. I was told that I simply had a "complicated" cyst and it was "probably" nothing to worry about.

I did not tell any of my friends that I was going through this. I just didn't want to make a big deal of it and didn't want to attract any attention to it. My thinking was that if I talked about it, then by the virtue of the Law of Attraction, I would somehow attract a negative outcome. And so, I suffered quietly to myself, shedding the occasional tears of fear, and then picking myself up promptly and moving on, because that is just what I do. After all, I couldn't possibly allow myself to feel fear or any worry around it because the universe might catch me and by the Law of Attraction I would somehow automatically attract a negative outcome. And so, I just pushed my fear away and went about my normal life as best possible.

However, my doctor suggested that we check it again in six months time to make sure nothing had changed. So six months later I went for another mammogram and they saw that it had grown in size. I went for yet another ultrasound and biopsy surgery. Knowing that it had grown in size quite a bit was now raising up those feelings of fear again. Amazing how close at hand they can be. I told my doctor to please just take the sucker out. I did not want this thing in my body any longer especially if it can grow in size that quickly and who knew how else it could change?

As previously, I did not want my friends to know because I didn't want them to worry about me and then be calling to check in on me which would mean I'd have to explain things and be dwelling on it when I just didn't want to have to think about it. If I allowed myself to think about it then once again the Law of Attraction might get me, right?

So what does all this mean? I know that according to the Law of Attrraction (and if you aren't familiar with this term, then I invite you to watch the movie or read the book called, "The Secret")we attract EVERYTHING that happens to us in our lives from the people who show up on our path to the situations we find ourselves in and the events that seemingly just happen to us, such as our illnesses, diseases or other health issues. I believe this to be true and live by it, but yet to think that we attract our own illness, I still have some battles with. This means that we then blame ourselves for everything that happens and live in fear and worry for every thought or feeling we have that may not be 100% positive or happy in a given moment. I believe that the universe is not only working by the Law of Attraction. There are other Laws and Forces at work simultaneously. By not sharing what I was going through and living in my private fear and inner conflict over allowing myself to even have these feelings let alone share them, I believe that the fear and inner conflict itself of sharing with others could do as much damage to my health as the health condition itself.

I believe that we need to live in a way that allows us to minimize fear and other forms of negative stress as much as possible. From what I've seen, the Law of Attraction has in many cases caused people much stress when things don't happen the way they think they "should". I believe in positive thinking , but I also believe that it is not only okay, but also necessary to acknowledge and honour your true feelings about a difficult situation and that it is perfectly okay to allow yourself to feel those feelings, own them and also share them and communicate them so that you can gain comfort from the love and support of others who care about you. This way you can work through the feelings, accept them and then allow yourself to rise above them through the ultimate release of them. This is much healthier than denying your true feelings and pretending that everything is perfectly fine when you know in your deepest truth that it is not okay. Living in denial of your truest feelings does not serve anyone, especially yourself.

So, yes, the Law of Attraction is always at work, but it doesn't mean that you should live in fear, shame or self-blame when things happen in ways that you do not wish for or expect.

I am glad that I did choose to share with others about my surgery two days ago. I got calls and emails from all over wishing me love and sending me positive energy and prayers. I thank you all for your love and support and hope that this Blog Post will have some meaning for anyone reading this who is perhaps facing health issues or a difficult time.